My segue

Admist all the activity that fill my days - i seem to have lost the one connection that my spirit needs: this blog.

Life has been absolutely manic - highs, lows, tempramental and rather deranged. I'm stumbling and falling and bruising my knee in places that have been bruised before. And boy does it hurt. It sucks to re-skin a pre-skinned part of your body. It burns - lingeringly. And unbeknowst to my rational self - my emotional psyche has melodramatically flipped the script on my ass. More on this will surely follow - i promise.

I've got multiple weeks of eventful days to scribe - roadtrips with the fam, roadtrips with M, dinner with S, fights/scuffles/joys, lunch with my grandma, endless visits to the doctor and of course, my love-hate relationship with the enemy in white. Weeks of pure joy and pure pain. It's ironic how all of life's greatest moments arrive packaged neatly in a dichotomy.

Well, thats how all of mine arrived.

But in the meantime and the in-between time - here's a little something that Aunty Madge sent to all her loved ones. I'm blessed to be on that list and it tickles me pink to know that M's momma loves the bejeesus out of me! Weee! That's one thing in my existence thats going just right. Anyways, she sent out a little something that works as a beautiful reminder of what human beings unconsciously do. A reminder of how desperately short and potentially sublime this life could be. And most importantly, a reminder that we control the good, the bad and the ugly in this lifetime.

More will come. Soon. Pinky-swear.

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When is Now

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are. After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, when we are able to go on a nice vacation or when we retire. The truth is there's no better time to be happy than right now.

If not now, when?

Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with. Remember that time waits for no one.

So, stop waiting .

Until your car or home is paid off.
Until you get a new car or home.
Until your kids leave the house.
Until you go back to school.
Until you finish school.
Until you lose 10 lbs.
Until you gain 10 lbs.
Until you get married.
Until you get a divorce.
Until you have kids.
Until you retire.
Until summer..
Until spring.
Until winter
Until fall.
Until you die.

There is no better time than right now to be happy. Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

So work like you don't need money, love like you've never been hurt and dance like no one's watching.

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i thought this was fitting for all the right reasons. I for one, hope that i have the foresight to remember this lesson every time i feel like life will be better when......

until soon
be blessed

j